Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in jammie's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, October 1st, 2008
1:19 am	Pearl Jam "Black" Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay Were laid spread out before me as her body once did All five horizons revolved around her soul As the earth to the sun Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn Ooh, and all I taught her was everything Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds Of what was everything All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything... I take a walk outside I'm surrounded by some kids at play I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head I'm spinning, oh, I'm spinning How quick the sun can, drop away And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass Of what was everything All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything... All the love gone bad turned my world to black Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I will be...yeah... I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be a star In somebody else's sky, but why, why, why Can't it be, can't it be mine Pearl Jam "Other Side" It's not the same without you up here Can't find my wheels Your absence is what breeds this fear Warm breath and all it steals You can't know how it feels to be in here All the dark horse fields, befriendin' me Playin' ain't the same without you here We've come to hate the golden rule Cannot seem to make the dots connect The morning light don't show you near You can't know what it's like to bleed from here The blackened world grows white, it goes nowhere Death ain't the same without you, dear I make the others run and hide New York streets seem to make it worse All this noise inside the quiet I can't hold on, the weight you bear My body's broken fast, please lift me up You can't know what it's like to be inside The fading melodies can't beat my need I'm not the same without you here How can i quit to be there Sit and stare Stare.. Begging for a prayer Pearl Jam "Sad" All the photographs were peeling And colors turned to gray He stayed... in his room with memories for days He faced... an undertow of futures laid to waste Embraced... by the loss of one he could not replace There is no reason that she passed And there is no god with a plan It's sad... and his loneliness is proof It's sad... he could only love you It's sad The door swings to a passing fable A fate we may delay We say... holding on...delivered in our embrace He let ‘em as he laid in bed Hoping that dreams would bring her back It's sad... and his loneliness is proof It's sad... he could only love you It's sad Holding his last breath Believing... he'll make his way But she's not forgotten He's haunted...he's searching for escape If just one wish could bring her back It's sad... and his loneliness is proof It's sad... he will always love you It's sad Eddie Vedder "No Ceiling" Comes the morning When I can feel That there's nothing left to be concealed Moving on a scene surreal No, my heart will never Will never be far from here Sure as I am breathing Sure as I'm sad I'll keep this wisdom in my flesh I leave here believing more than I had And there's a reason I'll be A reason I'll be back As I walk The hemisphere I got my wish To up and disappear I been wounded I been healed Now for landing I been For landing I been cleared Sure as I'm breathing Sure as I'm sad I'll keep this wisdom In my flesh I leave here believing More than I had This Love has got No Ceiling (Comment on this)
Monday, September 1st, 2008
1:17 am	Liam Finn "I'll Be Lightning" Hey, next week Pushing things with feet One shoe on Someone's vicious love Make me writhe around All I need is one All I need is one Blue and green Colours of the in between Tell, tell me Focus on the things we need Someone's vicious love Make me writhe around All I need is one All I need is one I'll be lightning you'll be lightning I'll be lightning you'll be lightning I'll be lightning you'll be lightning I'll be lightning you'll be lightning I'll be lightning you'll be lightning I'll be lightning you'll be lightning I'll be lightning you'll be lightning I'll be lightning you'll be lightning Love make me writhe around All I need is one All I need is one Liam Finn "Second Chance" Sew the seeds Sew the seeds to life by packing up to make it right And all I need All I need to know Are you too proud to let it go? Remember me Well honestly I don't remember who you are So it seems And so it seems tonight, you've got that wild look in your eye What do you need What do you need to prove? The woman that you turn into Remember me Well honestly I don't remember who you are The memory has never been the best, you want a second chance You stand around your haunted home Those demons won't leave you alone Don't forget me when you grow old Remember me Well honestly I don't remember who you are Remember me Well honestly i don't remember who you are The memory has never been the best, you want a second chance You stand around your haunted home Those demons won't leave you alone Don't forget me when you grow old Rememember remember Liam Finn "Lead Balloon" It's a sad day when it comes to this But a free man is a happier man Walk home and reminisce You were the highlight of the party Wooowoowowowowoo My head feels like a lead balloon I've got little to no memory I blame myself and so do you in the wee hours of the morning Stuck in traffic Lost in Memories Of when we were naked and in love Take no prisoners Leave no traces One day we'll be laughing loudly Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah Mad man with a nervous twitch you'll find love in a cemetery Young girl enormous soul with a heart full of her family Stumbled on something gold using IQ as a metaphor Dab hand at a million things but you know what you're good for Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah I know what I'm looking for I know what I'm looking for (Comment on this)
Friday, August 1st, 2008
11:20 pm	"In My Bed" Amy Winehouse Wish I could say it breaks my heart Like you did in the beginning Its not that we grew apart  A nightingale no longer singing It's something I know you can't do Separate sex with emotion I sleep alone, the sun comes up You're still clinging to that notion Everything is slowing down River of no return Recognize my every sound There's nothing new to learn You'll never get my mind right Like two ships passing in the night In the night, in the night Want the same thing when we lay Otherwise mine's a different way  It's a different way from where I'm going  Oh, it's you again Listen, this isn't a reunion So sorry if I turn my head Yours is a familliar face But that don't make your place safe In my bed, my bed, my bed I never thought my memory Of what we had could be intruded But I couldn't let it be I needed it as much as you did Now it's not hard to understand Why we just speak at night The only time I hold your hand Is to get the angle right Everything is slowing down River of no return You recognize my every sound There's nothing new to learn You'll never get my mind right Like two ships passing in the night In the night, in the night Want the same thing when we lay Otherwise mine's a different way  It's a different way from where I'm going Oh, it's you again Listen, this isn't a reunion So sorry if I turn my head  Yours is a familliar face But that don't make your place safe In my bed, my bed, my ba ba dee dee bed   "Take the Box" Amy Winehouse  Your neighbors were screaming I don't have a key for downstairs So I punched all the buzzers Hoping you wouldn't be there And now my head's hurting You say I always get my own way But you were in the shower when I got there And I'd have wanted to stay, but I got nothing to say You were so beautiful before today And then I heard what you say, man that was ugly The Moschino bra you bought me last Christmas (Put it in the box, put it in the box) Frank's in there and I don't care (Put it in the box, put it in the box) Just take it, take the box Take the box I came home this evening And nothing felt like how it should be I feel like writing you a letter But that's not me, you know me Feel so fucking angry Don't wanna be reminded of you But when I left my shit in your kitchen I said goodbye to your bedroom It smelled of you Mr. False Pretense, you don't make sense I just don't know you But you make me cry, where's my kiss goodbye? I think I love you The Moschino bra you bought me last Christmas (Put it in the box, put it in the box) Frank's in there and I don't care (Put it in the box, put it in the box) Now take it, take the box Just take it, take it Take the box And now just take the box Take the box Take the box (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 1st, 2008
11:09 pm	"No Ceiling" Eddie Vedder Comes the morning When I can feel That there's nothing left to be concealed Moving on a scene surreal No, my heart will never Will never be far from here Sure as I am breathing Sure as I'm sad I'll keep this wisdom in my flesh I leave here believing more than I had And there's a reason I'll be A reason I'll be back As I walk The Hemisphere I got my wish To up and disappear I've been wounded I've been healed Now for landing I've been Landing I've been cleared Sure as I am breathing Sure as I'm sad I'll keep this wisdom In my flesh I leave here believing More than I had This Love has got No Ceiling (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 1st, 2008
11:07 pm	"Chelsea Hotel #2" Leonard Cohen covered by Rufus Wainwright I remember you well in the Chelsea Hotel, you were talking so brave and so sweet, giving me head on the unmade bed, while the limousines wait in the street. Those were the reasons and that was New York, we were running for the money and the flesh. And that was called love for the workers in song probably still is for those of them left. Ah but you got away, didn't you babe, you just turned your back on the crowd. You got away, I never once heard you say, I need you, I don't need you, I need you, I don't need you and all of that jiving around. I remember you well in the Chelsea Hotel you were famous, your heart was a legend. You told me again you preferred handsome men, but for me you would make an exception. And clenching your fist for the ones like us who are oppressed by the figures of beauty, you fixed yourself, you said, "Well never mind, we are ugly but we have the music." And then you got away, didn't you babe...  you just turned your back on the crowd. You got away, I never once heard you say, I need you, I don't need you, I need you, I don't need you and all of that jiving around. I don't mean to suggest that I loved you the best, You can't keep track of each fallen robin. I remember you well at the Chelsea Hotel. That's all- I don't even think of you that often.   (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 1st, 2008
1:11 am	"All My Little Words" Magnetic Fields You are a splendid butterfly It is your wings that makes you beautiful And I could make you fly away But I could never make you stay You said you were in love with me Both of us know that that's impossible And I could make you rue the day But I could never make you stay Not for all the tea in China Not if I could sing like a bird Not for all North Carolina Not for all my little words Not if I could write for you The sweetest song you ever heard It doesn't matter what I do Not for all my little words Now that you've made me want to die You tell me that you're unboyfriendable And I could make you pay and pay But I could never make you stay "I Don't Want to Get Over You" Magnetic Fields I don't want to get over you I guess I could take a sleeping pill And sleep at will And not have to go through what I go through I guess I should take Prozac, right And just smile all night at somebody new... Somebody not too bright, but sweet and kind Who would try to get you off my mind I could leave this agony behind Which is just what I'd do if I wanted to But I don't want to get over you Cause I don't want to get over love I could listen to my therapist Pretend you don't exist And not have to dream of what I dream of I could listen to all my friends And go out again and pretend it's enough... Or I could make a career of being blue I could dress in black and read Camus Smoke clove cigarettes and drink vermouth Like I was 17, that would be a scream But I don't want to get over you "I Don't Really Love You Anymore" Magnetic Fields True, I'd give my right arm To keep you safe from harm And true, for you, I'd move to Ecuador And I'd keep a little farm Chop wood to keep you warm But I don't really love you anymore I don't have to love you now if I don't wish to I won't see you anyhow if that's an issue Because I am a gentleman Think of me as just your fan Who remembers every dress you ever wore Just the bad comedian Your new boyfriend's better than Cause I don't really love you anymore There'll be someday when your eyes do not enthrall me I'll be numb but realize you'll never call me Cause I've read your horoscope And now I've given up all hope So I don't really love you anymore Cause I've read your horoscope And now I've given up all hope So I don't really love you anymore "Underwear" Magnetic Fields (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 1st, 2008
9:18 pm	"Map of the Problematique" Muse Fear and panic in the air I want to be free From desolation and despair And I feel like everything I sow Is being swept away Well I refuse to let you go I can't get it right Get it right Since I met you Loneliness be over When will this loneliness be over Life will flash before my eyes So scattered and lost I want to touch the other side And no one Thinks they are to blame Why can't we see That when we bleed we bleed the same I can't get it right Get it right Since I met you Loneliness be over When will this loneliness be over Loneliness be over When will this loneliness be over
Saturday, March 1st, 2008
9:42 pm	"A Lack of Color" Death Cab for Cutie And when I see you I really see you upside down But my brain knows better It picks you up and turns you around Turns you around, turns you around If you feel discouraged That there's a lack of color here Please don't worry lover It's really bursting at the seams Absorbing everything The spectrum's A to Z This is fact not fiction For the first time in years All the girls in every girlie magazine Can't make me feel any less alone I'm reaching for the phone To call at 7:03... on your machine I slur a plea for you to come home But I know it's too late I should have given you a reason to stay Given you a reason to stay Given you a reason to stay Given you a reason to stay This is fact not fiction For the first time in years
Friday, February 1st, 2008
2:45 am	"February Stars" Foo Fighters hanging on here until I'm gone right where I belong just hanging on even though watched you come and go how was I to know you'd steal the show one day i'll have enough to gamble ill wait to hear your final call bet it all hanging on here until I'm gone right where I belong just hanging on even though i pass this time alone somewhere so unknown it heals the soul you ask for walls I build them higher we'll lie in shadows of them all I'd stand but they're much too tall and I fall february stars floating in the dark temporary scars february stars
Tuesday, January 1st, 2008
1:44 am	"High and Low" Greg Laswell I'm going to see some friends from out of state The very trip you were supposed to take A while ago But it fell through Like all of you Like all of you Thought I'd make the drive But a free plane ride is in the air And just like that my fear of it disappeared Like all of you Like all of you And I look high and low for yesterday High and low for you and I High and low Once I can see straight I might move Somewhere cold Seattle or the Bay area; to see your ghost What's left of you What's left of you And I look high and low for yesterday High and low for you and I High and low Found a letter from a man I might have met Addressed to you And I'll steal the words he ended with: I miss you And I do Miss you And I do High and low for yesterday High and low for you and I High and low